Should Auld Acquaintance Be Forgot?
Dec. 31st, 2004 09:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
waitingmanSo, New Year's Eve...
As previously mentioned, THIS is the time of year I don't like. Other people get emotional around Christmas for reasons of their own, but NYE is a difficult one for me... has been for about a decade now. Standing at the end of the year, looking back & wondering what I achieved with that 12 months of my life, realising 'nothing significant' is the answer & staring down the barrel of another 12 months of the same. I'm not exactly reclusive, nor do I fail to see opportunities when they come along... it just seems that not much has come along while I've been out & about this year. Perception? Or predicament?? Predestiny??!!
The last 2 NYEs pretty much dictated the way the next year would go - '02 into '03 was a dreadful night - so was the year. So much so, that I prefer to skip over that year in my calendar. '03 into '04 was a night of drifting around the city & surrounds with no real plan & no fixed agenda - just winding up wherever the tide of humanity pushed me (unfortunately it ended up pushing me to Manly in the small hours - god I hate that place) & thus the year has been spent pretty much the same way... drifting with no agenda, seeing what may happen. And trying to avoid Manly.
This year I'm tempted to stay home, watch the fireworks from afar & have a cheap night in. As mentioned, I need to save money this year, so if NYE predicts the year - that should be the way to go. Whether this transpires, or whether I wind up on Cremorne Point with some more traditional revellers (& then somewhere else... & then somewhere else...) depends on my willpower & the amount of emotional blackmail applied by interested parties. In living memory, I've never felt less like going out on a New Year's Eve.
As previously mentioned, THIS is the time of year I don't like. Other people get emotional around Christmas for reasons of their own, but NYE is a difficult one for me... has been for about a decade now. Standing at the end of the year, looking back & wondering what I achieved with that 12 months of my life, realising 'nothing significant' is the answer & staring down the barrel of another 12 months of the same. I'm not exactly reclusive, nor do I fail to see opportunities when they come along... it just seems that not much has come along while I've been out & about this year. Perception? Or predicament?? Predestiny??!!
The last 2 NYEs pretty much dictated the way the next year would go - '02 into '03 was a dreadful night - so was the year. So much so, that I prefer to skip over that year in my calendar. '03 into '04 was a night of drifting around the city & surrounds with no real plan & no fixed agenda - just winding up wherever the tide of humanity pushed me (unfortunately it ended up pushing me to Manly in the small hours - god I hate that place) & thus the year has been spent pretty much the same way... drifting with no agenda, seeing what may happen. And trying to avoid Manly.
This year I'm tempted to stay home, watch the fireworks from afar & have a cheap night in. As mentioned, I need to save money this year, so if NYE predicts the year - that should be the way to go. Whether this transpires, or whether I wind up on Cremorne Point with some more traditional revellers (& then somewhere else... & then somewhere else...) depends on my willpower & the amount of emotional blackmail applied by interested parties. In living memory, I've never felt less like going out on a New Year's Eve.
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Date: 2004-12-30 11:23 pm (UTC)Come and spend one down in Melbourne some time, and see what that might do for the year to come?
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Date: 2004-12-31 04:09 pm (UTC)