Dichotomy

[waitingman]

So... I complain after a while when life gets too busy & I never seem to have a moment to myself, dealing with arisings personal, professional & musical. I help eagerly, enthusiastically, put my life on hold, re-prioritise, provide, reschedule without rancour or complaint... stoically endure, cope, work through... grin & bear... grit teeth & smile...

Until a window of inactivity for a day or 2 arrives & I guard it like a newborn babe ~ cherishing the thought of some days alone to relax, regroup, sleep, revitalise... wonder, reflect, worry... feel neglected, wonder who I've offended, miss people... wonder why nobody calls, e-mails or texts, resist the urge to e-mail, call or text everyone I know to reassure myself I'm not in trouble or forgotten...

I need a hobby... or a habit.

Or an overhaul.

Or, I need to rediscover the simple joys in those things I used to do to relax, which don't hold the same appeal these days ~ writing, playing... writing & playing... writing while playing... photography.

I definitely need to let more things go... including the liquid anaesthetics/distractions I find too easily to hand when inertia comes calling with all its baggage.

Comments

[thebellman.livejournal.com]

A certain resonance there with something I have been thinking of late. I am starting to believe, myself, that I am so innured to frantic business that I have lost the habit of not constantly doing stuff. I have no idea what the solution is, but will tell you if I find it. Meanwhile, yes, I think that putting aside the liquid eraser is a good idea for me, so it may well be for you.

[shadow-5tails.livejournal.com]

I think you just like being miserable. *grins and ducks*

[waitingman.livejournal.com]

Them's fightin' words, Missy!!

In fact, being miserable makes me angry... which is, in itself, a good thing ~ as John Lydon once howled "Anger is an energy", a personal mantra for a while now...

Believe me, I'm (very) trying. My New Year's resolution was to pretend that '07 doesn't exist & proceed according to plan because I know it's the right plan, it was just the wrong time...which happens.

If it wasn't for Dionysus smiling on my musical endeavours right now, I don't know what I'd be doing. Mammon & Eros certainly aren't doing me any favours...

So ~ do you know any exotic, single, attractive singers with a taste for jaded-yet-optimistic & amusing eclect(r)ic guitarists??!!