The Lone-Wolf-No-Man-Is-An Island
Dec. 10th, 2007 02:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
waitingmanNo man is an island... they say.
Lone wolves never survive in the wild... they say.
I say bullsh@t to that.
Having just found my own way home from the other side of town via my own shoe leather & 1 short bus trip, after a work Christmas party that was hinted to deliver much concerning my immediate future, but inevitably ended up merely reinforcing my ignoble past. I say it's no wonder I don't rely on anyone else to look after either myself or my interests... By the end of the occasion & evening, I was feeling both emotionally & physically alone.
There were 2 people I would have liked help or support from, both of whom have previously said I could call on them any time. And I don't consider midnight to be an outrageous demand.
Many are the times I have answered the call for various people at all hours of the day & night, or have been placed on standby for the same & have done so without complaint or prevarication. Many are the times I have placed my faith in people who purport to have my best interests at heart ~ even when I know that they are only really doing it for themselves ~ only to find things fall at the first obstacle because the support has vanished at the slightest sign of inconvenience... or was never really there in the first place.
And you wonder why I have no faith in people.
Yes, I'm bitter. Yes, I'm hot & tired. No, I'm not drunkenly ranting ~ if only... Yes, I'll possibly regret some of the things I've written tomorrow, but this is my journal after all & this is how I feel right now... sore feet & all.
Thanks to my Foil for the lift to the venue.
Lone wolves never survive in the wild... they say.
I say bullsh@t to that.
Having just found my own way home from the other side of town via my own shoe leather & 1 short bus trip, after a work Christmas party that was hinted to deliver much concerning my immediate future, but inevitably ended up merely reinforcing my ignoble past. I say it's no wonder I don't rely on anyone else to look after either myself or my interests... By the end of the occasion & evening, I was feeling both emotionally & physically alone.
There were 2 people I would have liked help or support from, both of whom have previously said I could call on them any time. And I don't consider midnight to be an outrageous demand.
Many are the times I have answered the call for various people at all hours of the day & night, or have been placed on standby for the same & have done so without complaint or prevarication. Many are the times I have placed my faith in people who purport to have my best interests at heart ~ even when I know that they are only really doing it for themselves ~ only to find things fall at the first obstacle because the support has vanished at the slightest sign of inconvenience... or was never really there in the first place.
And you wonder why I have no faith in people.
Yes, I'm bitter. Yes, I'm hot & tired. No, I'm not drunkenly ranting ~ if only... Yes, I'll possibly regret some of the things I've written tomorrow, but this is my journal after all & this is how I feel right now... sore feet & all.
Thanks to my Foil for the lift to the venue.
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Date: 2007-12-10 02:50 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2007-12-10 03:43 am (UTC)You're not one of them.
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Date: 2007-12-10 03:56 am (UTC)