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waitingmanI have been neglecting this journal of mine increasingly over the last two years... & I even find myself posting more photos to lj-photophile than to my own journal, as I seem to take pictures far more often than use a thousand words these days... & given the lack of response to said photos in my journal ~ well, I stopped posting those too...
Anyway, here's either a last-gasp attempt at life, or a renewal of sorts. I'd like to try posting something every day for the next year, be it a lengthy confession, state of my world address, a simple statement, a comment, a photo, or a link to something far more interesting than I feel capable of producing myself
So before I embark on this...
Work:~ I have broken the three month hoodoo which took hold over the last couple of years, where any employment secured at the end of the year was terminated not very far into the next one. I have been with the current role for six months with neither any major discord, nor any sign of the review promised/hinted/threatened(?) for the end of January. It is not my dream role, nor salary, but it is work that keeps me engaged, at worst, & protects some skills from atrophy at best. My attempts this year at pursuing work more suited to my experience & financial requirements have so far been unsuccessful.
Home:~ We are, mostly, happy, settled & planning for a future that promises enough stability to foster bigger & better things for both of us. WaitingManor has seen some changes in routine & appearance since the advent of my Long-Suffering Partner & I would have to say most, if not all, have been for the infinitely better. Now... if only we could deal with the basketballing weightlifters next door in some terminal fashion...
Me:~ Depression seems to behave much like rigor mortis, in that; if it comes on fast, it departs as quickly, if it develops gradually, it wears off in the same manner. I think I am in the latter type. There have been several improvements in lifestyle & the lifting of some (metaphysical) weights, but no bursting forth into sunshine has occurred, or is expected... just a steady walk towards the light I always knew was there... somewhere. There have been issues with friends which have, as of now, resulted in the suspension of contact. I regret the circumstances in both cases, but not my reactions & subsequent decision. One of them celebrates a birthday tomorrow. I wish her Health, Wealth & Happiness, but have no desire to communicate any more specifically or personally. The other has proved the wisdom of the adage 'Never do business with friends'. It's a cliché because it's very true.
Music:~ My own music continues to be on hold, pending the availability of a disposable income... strings, maintenance, amplifiers & all those little things that add up to more money than I can spare right now. Ideas crop up & play around in my head, but none have made it to the fretboard or recording media. I'm still loosely attached to the World's Longest-Gestating Album project, with another recording date for it approaching next week, but no other work is being sought. My (ex)Musical Foil has been pushing me in the direction of the unfinished novel, with the idea of turning it into a kind of 'audio movie' (complete with soundtrack written by us, of course), which requires me to dust off the last printed manuscript & attack/update it. This idea is moving up the list of potential possibilities to the point where I may start very soon.
It would doubtless be more entertaining to read than long-winded 'blog bombs like this one.
Anyway, here's either a last-gasp attempt at life, or a renewal of sorts. I'd like to try posting something every day for the next year, be it a lengthy confession, state of my world address, a simple statement, a comment, a photo, or a link to something far more interesting than I feel capable of producing myself
So before I embark on this...
Work:~ I have broken the three month hoodoo which took hold over the last couple of years, where any employment secured at the end of the year was terminated not very far into the next one. I have been with the current role for six months with neither any major discord, nor any sign of the review promised/hinted/threatened(?) for the end of January. It is not my dream role, nor salary, but it is work that keeps me engaged, at worst, & protects some skills from atrophy at best. My attempts this year at pursuing work more suited to my experience & financial requirements have so far been unsuccessful.
Home:~ We are, mostly, happy, settled & planning for a future that promises enough stability to foster bigger & better things for both of us. WaitingManor has seen some changes in routine & appearance since the advent of my Long-Suffering Partner & I would have to say most, if not all, have been for the infinitely better. Now... if only we could deal with the basketballing weightlifters next door in some terminal fashion...
Me:~ Depression seems to behave much like rigor mortis, in that; if it comes on fast, it departs as quickly, if it develops gradually, it wears off in the same manner. I think I am in the latter type. There have been several improvements in lifestyle & the lifting of some (metaphysical) weights, but no bursting forth into sunshine has occurred, or is expected... just a steady walk towards the light I always knew was there... somewhere. There have been issues with friends which have, as of now, resulted in the suspension of contact. I regret the circumstances in both cases, but not my reactions & subsequent decision. One of them celebrates a birthday tomorrow. I wish her Health, Wealth & Happiness, but have no desire to communicate any more specifically or personally. The other has proved the wisdom of the adage 'Never do business with friends'. It's a cliché because it's very true.
Music:~ My own music continues to be on hold, pending the availability of a disposable income... strings, maintenance, amplifiers & all those little things that add up to more money than I can spare right now. Ideas crop up & play around in my head, but none have made it to the fretboard or recording media. I'm still loosely attached to the World's Longest-Gestating Album project, with another recording date for it approaching next week, but no other work is being sought. My (ex)Musical Foil has been pushing me in the direction of the unfinished novel, with the idea of turning it into a kind of 'audio movie' (complete with soundtrack written by us, of course), which requires me to dust off the last printed manuscript & attack/update it. This idea is moving up the list of potential possibilities to the point where I may start very soon.
It would doubtless be more entertaining to read than long-winded 'blog bombs like this one.
